before i begging blogging about me, i wanna say.

please,
SHUT THE
FUCK UP ABOUT
MICHAEL FUCKING JACKSON SHEESH
shut the fuck up about michael jackson

movin on, finally getting back into the swing of working, it fucks my sched all the way up. i cant sleep during the day & by the time im tired i need to have my ass up for work. i work overnight two am - nine am. bummer. so, ant & i no longer speaking, it bummed me out a bit cause i liked him but yenno me, hump em & dump em. im off friday mornin at nine til tuesday morning at two. can you say hibernation ? i know i can. met a bunch of new people & i love all of em, that has never ever happened before. <333


ps. urbanMETRO*
somewhere you need to be, read the basics
before you fuck up my roster.
k? okay.


anyways, im drawing blanks & im tired so bye.
^_^

its pouring down rain & im not big on getting wet after i showered unless im goin in the pool. this weather is perfect, stay in the house fuck, sleep, fuck some more & sleep again.

to bad the only person id give it up to is way in west bubble fuck. its a 12hr drive that im not up for. plus i gotta pbj (probation before judgement) i cant drive outside of MD until my hearing. a bitch swerves one time & im already fucked deep.

but anyhow today is gone be slow. im giving my laptop a twelve hr break wore that shit out for a long minute. im updating my layout from wasalu on the move to townsVILLAINS since everyone seemed a lil lost ill explain. remember the power puff girls? well they lived in townsville & im dedicating my layout to all the primary villains i forgot about the gang green gang, they'll get their shine another time.

i signed up for urban metro today, hell to the naw @ the process to get started is hell & then some. im finally done & i'm proud of myself. shan's character & mine are besties

W0oT!

i'm glad i did my work earlier this morning cause im not doin a damn thing today. <3

tis all, watch videos, slide shows & listen to music. i didnt shuffle the music this time. idk why, its cool thoe, you'll live skip the track if you dont wanna listen.

ROFL @ THIS NIGGGGGGAA

im just chillin, updating this shit.
im sick of seeing chris brown so he has to go
im also tired of these same 17 songs in rotation
except the cudi & gaga shit.


the new shit got me doin this


lmao @ trey songz, ion much like him.
he makes good music. so im like a nigga fan.
the kind that justs likes the artist not
how they look. yenno. he doesnt need a new groupie & i dont
have space on my roster under cudi & gaga.
two at a time.

uhm i put up a showcase, peep it.
its under my tweets. YAY.


ima make sixhunnid by friday, yenno why i got so many followers?
cause im interesting. duhhh.

crillz, thats my flawda bussit behbeh
i showed im ow tuh thow it bike[/plies]

uhm, im tryna think bout whats really good right now. aint shit really spent 200 outta 640. 40 on my hair. dont ask me what she did for that 40 but i gave her exact change ion tip bitches, ask them niggas down at the strip club. then 32 on my eyebrows & eyelashes. i got them shits extended. i was feelin myself earlier. now all im doin is blinkin & wiping my eyes so the cute factor is gone.

i talked to my pudding face today, we didnt talk about shit so ill leave it we talked.

im getting a tattoo friday.
carpe diem on the back of my wrists it means cease the day. kind of a motivational thing & i wont have to ask myself what the flyin fuck was i thinking when i got that tat when im 50 +

ladies of TEAMJUICE photoshoot,
i might stay in NY for that.
i got a work orientation thoe. "/

hm, ill see what happens.
tis all til tomoro lovies.

first off, this nigga doesnt even know the words.
then what the fuck is up with the hair?
third just WHY?

everyone knows i cant drive outta state cause i only have my LP, im lazy & i dont like the DMV lines. so anyways i had to be back in NY today so i can go see my lawyers tomoro, my mom couldnt take me & my only other option was greyhound. never again. i got on a the "express" bus, aint shit express about that bus. stopped five different places & the traffic pissed me off. then i almost got kicked off the LIRR cause i caught the peak train w. an off peak ticket. on top of that my cousin had no damn electricity, but kickin it at her house was fun. i got no work done today but im on that shit tomoro. idk why i didnt even attempt when i got in the house. lazy shit. i called my puddin today we talked for about 40 minutes. i giggled when he asked if i planned on knowing him for the rest of my life. awww. not much happened today, prolly nothing tomoro either.

luh yall, xoxo
mickey

- as usual i styled on them bitches at waltz rehersal.
- found out i'm 4th on the debutante pageant roster idk why im collecting money if i dont get a portion if not all of the money back. yenno?
- visited the dressmaker, bitch was no help.
- went home
- ate
- slept

the end

man, renee's boyfriend is a fuckin trip boy. we're coming out the restaurant & this nigga is sitting inside the truck. i was like nee who the shit is inside that truck & she was like aint nobody in my truck. then the door opened i had my mace out & ready to spreay when i saw it was jerrod, i still coulda maced him but that nigga is ten notches past crazy. anyways he starts hollerin

"renee, why the fuck are you here? didnt i say i want yo ass in that fucking house tonight? i got that locator chip on the fucking truck, renee take ya friends home & get ya ass in the house, taking my damn truck while im sleep girl ooooooh ooooh"
"jey you said i can go out tonight."
"that house aint clean."

in my head im dyin, but if he put his hands on her i woulda maced that ass something awful. jerrod is just verbally abusive, renee doesnt wanna leave his ass & we're all tired of the interventions. so we let them do them. the whole ride back to my house was silent, aside from renee's random pleads to just stay out. it trips me out that she's a grown ass woman asking a nigga that isnt her father for permission to do anything. no amount of money can have me beggin for anything, thats a negative cause i run this shit regardless.

i dont like driving to the hood which is the main reason we took the truck, but seeing as how re's boyfriend got her on punishment & im the only one left as a possible ride . . . i drove. i hate the clubs cover charge, $15 & nothing is ever poppin. that's why i dont tip the strippers. but anyways they picked me out of the crowd for a "demonstration" & boy i backslid ten times from whatever that nigga was doing. its was like magic between my legs, i know he felt it getting wet, why he started dry humping me harder. this nigga was really getting it in. when the song was over he failed to stop, and by then i was already completely lost & in my own world. best non sex i ever had.

before we left i went to the gas station, you know them hos struggled to ante up the cash. i walked inside the store to pay for gas & buy a mucho mango arizona when there he was, looking even better in light. i ignored him, even thoe my heart was racing. he tapped me on the shoulder & i turned around with this evil mug on my face. "my bad mama, i was gone ask if you enjoyed the show but i already know you did." LMAOOO, bitch. i did thoe, it was the kinda shit that would make you cheat on ya man & not give a fuck if he found out.
"is that ya real hair?"
"didnt you already rub on my head to check in the club?"
"im askin"
"dont"
"i cant ask any questions?"
"you can do whatever you want."
"fiesty, thats what ima call you. FIESTAAAAAY."
"not like that."
"what?"
"FIESTAAAAAY."
"okay, well gime ya number & i promise i wont do it again."
"i need to go pump this gas."
"ill come with you, no problem."
"whatever."

so we walk to my car, my homegirl chris was hype cause she like him. i mean really liked him, she was loud as hell like hey baby & it was soooo damn funny how he dismissed her.

"get back back in the car ma, grown folks are talkin."

DEADDD

i laughed cause she's three years older than me. but anyways he asks for my number again & i gave it to him, chris was kinda salty but so what. by the time i got home my cell was dead so if he called he woulda got my voice mail. we'll see what happens thoe. (:

smh yesterday just ugh, im done zoning out. i took a nap & im fully focused. but earlier im on twitter & i was jokin yenno, like "dont you drive a 91 jeep?" he gone come out his face calling me a monkey, that alone aint sit right but yeah mean, let it go cause niggas say stupid shit to see how far they can take it, but me being me, i gotta tell you straight the fuck up how i feel about anything. simply because i dont have time for the nonsense. if i feel as though you're just indirectly speaking about me ima let you talk & then ima say my piece. i didnt get bent i was just like wrd? really? is this how we carryin it? okay then, ima do you like a half a day at school its early dismissal time for you to go. NOW.

#onthelow I don't find darkskin women attractive. Yep I'm color blind
@Greqo bro I don't know what it is but they don't look good to me man vagina be looking like steak and shit. They more stuck up now too smh
#onthelow I couldn't date have sex with or be attracted to a fat or semi fat girl. Stretchmarks turn me off get some coco butter ho

funny aint it, how all of that shit fits my description. but whatever.

antwan: Huh? How did I take it left the thang I said was I hope you aint take it the wrong way
antwan: Last*
aerin: lmao, bruh
aerin: all that slick ass shit you posted afterwards
aerin: im not stupid.
aerin: never been.
antwan: Wow none of that was about you sweetheart lol real talk I was sitting the driveway bored twitting
aerin: im sure.
antwan: Yo is you serious. Now we tripping I'm not childish if say it to you if that was the case real talk
aerin: im not trippin.
aerin: im sayin its funny how you start goin in shortly after i said what i said.
antwan: Yeah but non that was indirected too you

side eye*
¬_¬

it is what it is thoe, on some real if it really was about me then more power to him & if not oops. then my mom is buggin out, ive been staying to myself cause once again my mom is acting up, like she'll send my brother to relay messages even if we're in the same room. or she'll cook just enough for her & my brother & ask me if i was hungry afterwards. lil petty shit like that. i dont have to speak, if you aint gone speak why should i speak? i catch hints. like you gone bump me instead of saying excuse me? or ask me if i wanna move out. lmao. okay, im gone again & i dont plan on comin back this time. how you gone pay yo bills w. the salary you on? smh. bump it my car note aint my business never been stressed on how it gets paid cause its in my dads name. all i have to worry about is my $80.14 for shittymobile.


Aerin (insert lastname)
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If your qualifications are determined to be a good fit for the Assistant Manager position, or any other open positions we may have, we will contact you to discuss next steps in the recruitment process.

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you need no experience & i already worked as asst manager at kids footlocker my senior year. i only quit cause i moved & i didnt get my car til the middle of that year & a three hr + commute is not the business & everyone knows ion do transit, sorry. the bus is like aids, too many niggas touching shit w. dirty hands. thanks but no thanks.

why is everyone ignoring me? besides my puddin, ill give him points for speaking but as far as everything else twitter convos mean nothing to me. i like talking on the phone. tomoro my phone better blow up like im the hot shit & everyones on it. lets make that happen, kthanks.

my ex hit me up on the blackberry messenger, bitch mouth thats what i call him. i cant believe he left me for this banshee looking thing just cause shes a freak w. a big ass. im not making any finger bang videos for anyone. i dont do it alone so im not gone do it for an audiance. idk why i was infatuated with bitch mouth. he was not cute, under my height requirement, livin at home w. mama, no car. nothing. he had a big heart thoe, like im already knowing this nigga isnt in it for looks cause bless the critter he's with now. i used to hate him cause he blew me off on valentines day to be with this cuntrag then lied & said he had to work late. that was that bitch ass shit that spewed from his mout. i had to give him the side eye all the time once she came around. screwface looking trick. oh, yeah on to him hitting me up. i didnt know who it was so im like, yeah what who you? "its me" me who? "me "bitchmouth" stop faking like you dont know" i havent responded back mr. miyogi must have him on the silent treatment why he decided it would be okay to hit me up. its not, so dont.

but uhm why these hoes askin bout my puddin? i mean yeah hes on my blog & what i tell you is all you need to know, refrain from asking random extra info questions about him & i dare one of you to right click & save any of his photos. death to ya pc. my girl lee will send a fleet of trojans to ya hard drive. dont go looking for him & im already hip to the nosey broads browsing friend lists so i dont have him saved anywhere but in my phone book. ¬_¬ lets keep it cute k, ladies? okay.

if some of you noticed i changed my blog url, leer los labios its spanish for read my lips. codenameilla just came off as oh not ooooooh. this one isnt fully me but im sticking with it _{for now}. all my faithful linkers change the html coding once again.

swine flu still exists? cause i havent heard about it anymore. ehh well. my period is almost over thank goodness, cause i hate panties they dont do nothing for me. suprisingly ive never had any yeast infections cause tight jeans & no draws = dough cooter & yellow puss. not for me thoe. i think next week im only gone wear leggings. i like em. colorful leggings, metal accessories & heels. gotta stunt on em. ;)

oh, ion eem think i ever mentioned lamar, hes like nomnomnom & his voice is like do me right now. im so serious, thats why i got his music on my ipod. ;) but anyways im supposedly getting the first shoutout on this weeks fevmix, ill post it once i get it. dont be jealous thoe. im cool like that.

follow him: here
listen to his music: here

my shout: here
skillz.

donovan: Hi
donovan: Hi
aerin: what you want?
donovan: Sup
aerin: what do you want?
donovan: You
aerin: who?

MEEEEEEE

i almost forgot.

happy 22nd birfdae eddiekins

iite, if we randomly talk on twitter or myspace thats not grounds for us to meet up, i dont want to go to dinner, i dont wanna have drinks cause for one im under aged & for two i dont drink. i dont know yall from a hole in the wall so why are yall so quick to wanna meet? how about no, no need for justifications. i could be some crazy killer bitch & you wanna see me. lmao sikeeeee. i do carry mace & heavy objects in my purse. if all else fails ill bust ya head open w. my heel. so to save face why dont we like avoid the lets go out convos. you'll end up hurt.

idk why im up at 3am but bruh, im on twitter just chillaxin when this dude decides to RT JayElectronica's update about the black man being God & in my mind im like get the fuck outta here. i asked him to elaborate but dude couldnt so it obvious he was speaking from the side of his face. then he responds to my update talking bout not just black men we're all God because Jesus said so. DEATH instantly came over me. im like ... Jesus said this? REALLY? JESUS SAID THIS? he woulda ended up in hell with the devil, because didnt the devil claim he was "God" too & then got banished from heaven forever. but anyways back to the shit this dude was saying, it was like some free to be you & me happy go lucky lets just make shit up as we go along type shit. cause the more he explained the more lost i became. i need to post this.

@mcbillions uh YES hence the complication of GOD - Jesus would say we are all Gods Children which is Kinda what I'm saying

@mcbillions no- he never did- no you are right never nope. so i'm just getting this from my own research and understanding of the universe

@mcbillions the information of your inner power and ability to change the world around you is the biggest secret EVER TO MUCH FOR MOST

@mcbillions jesus never said, but alluded to much more (the kingdom is heaven is inside you)

@mcbillions its not false, let me say this- we r NOT God per say- but we ARE creating the universe as we see fit. No question- thats Godly

@mcbillions and that is where you are mistaken. we all are god BECAUSE there is only 1 God. A paradox-

facepalms*

say what thoe? on some real i just asked where he found the information that Jesus said we're all God & i got a bunch of booooooooollshieeeeeet. my nig if you reading this & you get offended oops for you. i'm actually gone print screen this shit & take it to church. & btw he was right it was a paradox i was thinking paradigm when he was posting but all in all. im bouta ease up on donovan, cause he's no longer on the dumbest nigga i know list.

today is my buttercremesupremes birthday she said dont blog about it or shed be embarassed & then she called me and went bezerk cause i said happy borned day to eddie & not to her. so here it goes. sameeka, my special sammycakes ily ma & happy 20th borndday. <3

man since im just on a roll with this blog. ima just talk. i think ima start talkin to most the people i fell out with from december til now, except jonathan. how he gone get mad at me for not wanting to be on the phone at work? at first when he answered the phone he sounded like a grown man then the bitch in voice kicked in. i remember when i used to like him, he was so swagged out this was back before swag became nasty. but that voice threw me, i couldnt be in public on speakerphone cause he stay hollin ily koko & people think its a female & shit. he did annoy me at one point & i just couldnt take it i had to cuss him out. i think i might hit zamar up & see if he's still mad at me. cause im just puzzled as to why that is. & don cause we used to talk every damn day all damn day. man i just realized i killed off everyone w. convo these newbies bore me. no offense but i cant carry a convo w. a boring ass person. "someone who stays in the house on the net all day." i shall execute plan "rekindleoldflame" whenever the hell i wake up tomoro later.

xoxo, illaGHEE.

let me kick back relax & listen to coodi, (if you heard the intro to day & night you'd know what i mean) but chea man. im on this insane high & i dont wanna come down from it, i never really needed weed to get high cause i get so geeked off the simple shit in like the smoke would just ruin it. if i think hard enough i can halucinate w. my own visions.

i gained ten lbs, so thats my initiative to get my fat ass back up & lose this last 50. im too zoned out to excersize right now thoe, for the life of me i dont know why i keep spacing out. i did it this morning picking my god baby up, staring at the red light, not paying attention to anything i just completely missed the light & had to wait again, right now im spaced out i can totally feel little empty bubbles drifting thru my head, im not even watching the screen im more so staring at it since my fingers already know where to go. excuse my typos, im not really in the mood to correct em.

last time i zoned out like this is when don told me i was acting different & we couldnt speak anymore, nah he aint dump me we were never together. but i really lost my mind back then. hell its the exact same day a year later, go figure that one.

i need some icecream three good movies & a quiet house so i can hibernate. im stressing out for no reason. "/

sidenote: my car is clean. ^_^

okay. this blog is for all you complainin ass bitches that bring absolutely nada to the table ever, & nine times out of ten you'll never ever have anything of value to offer.

im listening to some females rant & rave about what a nigga is doing wrong, when they aint doin shit to better a niggas situation. why you raggin on a niggas whip when you waiting at the fuckin bus stop with your all day pass? i just dont understand the logic, females with whips dont even really diss niggas drivin b.a.v's (busted ass vehicles) & you wanna know why? because this nigga is not sitting on the bus stop.

there's an old saying "beggars cant be choosers" it means if you dont have you cant be picky about what comes your way. im so sick of people who dont have shit flapping their gums about those who do. like what the fuck gives you the right to do that? i need to comprehend why you bottom of the barrell females do that. where's your car? where's your money? why are you always looking for handouts & shit?

those are the type of females i cant fuckin stand, i understand why niggas treat yall like the shit out of a sick dogs ass. cause yall act like yall deserve more than what you give & what you give is nothing. EVER. no one wants a nothing ass bitch & if you present yourself as such then you shouldnt even expect much.

why do females do that? like bitch about shit they have no control over. specially when you're on ya ass all day browsing the net, no car, still at ya mommas, no education beyond high school, oooh i gotta macbook & a dslr i design web pages, do graphics, add people on social sites & put on a fake persona like i'm that bitch to be around. i wish yall would stop, cause thats how 99% of yall are. trippin me the fuck out with that shit. girl get on with yaself. find a better hobby.

oh & please for the love of GOD stop wearing chinese slippers, karate slippers, crocs, shit that doesnt flatter you, etc. step it up cunts, step it up. kthnx. if you feel this applies to you then it does trick. point blank end of story.

lets talk about something other than sex please, cause damn bruh. the convos w. constant sexual refrences make me sick. dont wonder why i cant stand ya ass when you always talkin bout my ass or my tits. specially if you know yeen nowhere near my type. BOY STOP!

& these icons with ya small dicks in em, bruh can we not? seriously. ima show yall the proper way & size to icon ya dick. thats trent, size 10"/4". reasonable picture, dont have ya crotch on display if you dont plan on showing ya dick. itll either be a tease or a huge question mark ?? in both cases people are gone ask why. why do you have that small penis on display? or why are you teasing me with that picture?

right way: here
wrong way: here

lets get it right fellas. shit.

anyways on to todays rundown, i chilled with my godbaby all day. we walked to the liberry thats whats she calls it & we read books. they have a kiddy section & i swear she was the loudest kid in there always telling people to hush. "no you have to hush" i was like i can hear you all the way in the other section. then she cried when we left, so i got her a cherry milkshake. wendy's is a fuckin rip off, small ass shake for $3 i coulda went to checkers gotta xl for $4 & fed the whole block. i left my keys in the house so i had to break in the window, i almost fell once i got inside on the ledge. i need to put my keys together since my car is push start i always forget to carry all my keys. but ehh well. im talkin to my pudding pop right now. alot of yall havent seen him so. there he is, yeeeeeee.
^_^

Deep, fulfilling, meaningful, love, passion, beauty are all the lies that his body tells me as he lies between my legs doing what he does oh so well. His eyes look deep inside my soul and he sees the curiosity sparking within me. That’s when he digs deeper, strokes slower, kisses deeply, fill me with him, speaks to me with his body, and loves me passionately. I look into his eyes and see all the little white lies, shit; the big black ones too. My heart breaks, my mind races, but my body opens up and lets him in. I cry silently wanting to know how is it that this man between my legs has me so DICKmatized. I ask myself, “Do you love him? Yes, I do.” I close my eyes and picture the man that I used to love, how he used to make love to me, how he used to kiss me, how he used to touch me, how he used to be and my blood is flowing through my body making me feel hot. I open eyes only to have my vision taken from me by the evolution of the man that used to be. He’s grown into something I don’t recognize. His eyes tell lies, his words sharp, his actions cold. Tears start to fill my eyes, mostly because the man I used to love is now a stranger to me, and the other part because it feels so damn good. He sees my tears starting to fall, and he stops. No words are spoken from his mouth; he just kisses my tears and began to make love to me. He puts his body so close to mine that it feels as if we are one; he began kissing me on my neck and licking the trail that leads to my ear. He goes faster sending my over the edge, I tremble he slows down. My tears flowing freely because this man has caused me so much pain, but now giving me the greatest pleasure. But hey pain is pleasure, right? He rises to his knees, staring at me as my emotions flow. He sees me crying; trembling; waiting; wanting; ¦needing; hoping; finally he pulls me to him. He holds me so tight as if he was blocking all of the pain from the world, from myself from him. I feel secure but knowing that it will only last for the moment. I close my eyes and accept. Quick flashes of all the pain that he has caused crosses my mind like it was only yesterday, and all the feelings of hurt, pain, and heartache hit me. Crying uncontrollably he soothes me with his lips, molest me with his hands, sells me his dreams with his words. I shouldn’t be here but I can’t leave, his body holds me hostage, his eyes heavy like chains on me. I’m lying on the bed being brought back to reality by the moisture of his tongue. First on my neck, then lower to my shoulder, my breast, my stomach, my knees, my thigh, my inner thigh, my love. He’s watching me intensely but I cant look back. He holds my waist. My back arches; he goes faster. My legs tremble; he goes faster. My body tenses; he slows down. I explode. He kisses my quivering lips. “Look at me,” he whispers against my chin. I hesitate. I slowly open my eyes and, for the first time in a long time, I see the man I love on top of me. His eyes showing sincerity; his face showing adoration; his smile showing warmth. He stares deeply into my eyes and tells me so much without saying a word. He loves me. He cares for me. He needs me. He wants me. He has to have me. He can’t live without me. And at that moment I realized the reason why this man has me so DICKmatized.

& im so sick of dealin with the nonsense, niggas know exactly how i used to be so they assume they can just press my buttons & watch me react.

i want it all, that's why i strive for it. diss me & you'll never hear a reply for it.

no longer will i be the one to react to the nonsens, ill say my piece to myself & keep it moving. alot of the trick bitches i used to associate myself with aint worth a shit in my eyes now a days. im not seeing how we used to be cool & now that we arent for what ever reason, you bad mouthing me. shows we werent cool to begin with. i think ima address all these triflant ass skeez buckets, just for the record i aint harpin on it. i just wanna say what i gotta say & let that shit be done forever on my part.

julisa - bitch, i used to have your back to the point i got arrested for your stupid ass. when you aint have money, i was the one that broke you off even if it was my last bit of money i split it 50/50 with you. the one time i ask for my money back you make a scene, i didnt even hound you for the shit i asked twice. then you made it seem like im harassing you for a lil bit of money when you actually owed me $350. trick get that shit together, cause i hear you still yammerin about it. its a shame i had to bust ya head wide open for my money. we were supposed to be besties for life. r.i.p that shit thoe, '01 - '06.

jr. - i never fucked you. idk why you insisted on lying sayin that we did, you fucked shit up with me & deay'von. i should have never let you in my circle, but that was my bad. keepin you at a distance was what's best, since you were my mans homeboy. its crazy, cause you dead now, off runnin ya mouth & i told you about that shit. i told you a nigga was gone clap that ass & you see what happened? shot the fuck up, ion even feel sorry for yo folks cause you learned ya lesson the hard way.

grace - lmao bitch you upset i aint wanna put you on my cellphone bill? i just met you & you wanted me to do a boatload of shit. its yo bad you decided to act a damn ass at a party & got jumped. i told you once i hit 18 that fighting shit was thru. plus it wasnt my battle to fight, you ran ya mouth & you said you dont fuck with me. how you gone get mad at me for watchin? trick please. watch who you talk about me to, you might get whooped on again. ;)

thats it for the irl people ima just do one big fuck you for the net niggas thats still on my twat.

you ready?

F U C K Y O U !

still talkin shit on the daily, cause your life sucks. & i see how yall are desperately aiming to get on my level. you're too far behind in the game catch up. i can do you & do me at the same time & still get shit done more effectively than you ever could with ya whole squad. watch who you fuck over in life, you gone end up needing em later on. stop waiting for me slip & fuck up. its never gone happen, ever.

I'm pretty sure most if not all of you heard Jay-Z's new song from Blue Print 3 "Death Of Autotune" or D.O.A. I'm already sick of the damn song, its nice but its not play it a zillion fucking times in a row spectacular.

to listen to Jay-Z - Death Of Autotune click : here

MJB and Drake teamed up on a song called "The One" I like the song, its worth listening to on repeat til you learn the words.

to listen to Mary J. Blige ft. Drake - The One click : here

normally when my period starts im something like an emotional pushover. but today, i just feel like being a bitch & i quite frankly i could careless who i lash out at. im cramping beyond belief, i mean i could seriously curl in the fetal position with a hot rag on my tummy pop a few pain pills & go to sleep.

anthony texted me & my cousin texted him back, i dont like shit like that at all. now i have to explain that i didnt text him, specially since i was asleep. its not hard to mimick me when i text, i use proper punctuation & never uppercase anything. im craving a mcgriddle somebody bring me one. RIGHT DAMN NOW.

OMG. are any of you fuckers watching the video below this post? if you havent i strongly suggest you do. im over here in tears this nigga is a hot damn mess, i mean like seriously it doesnt get any worse than that. if it does, i pray i never come across it.

well im off to text my beeyotch. ;;)

pause the music to watch the video.

with out fail his presence annoys me.

donovan: Ayeeee
donovan: Bow bow
donovan: Bruh bruh
donovan: Ayee
[AVAILABLE] "They call me Mr. Tonight"
donovan: What's up
donovan: Aye you can stop now with whateva you trying to do...
donovan: Like 4 real
donovan: Aye
donovan: Real shit bruh chillout
donovan: Better keep the goodones be4 you lose them bruh
donovan: Send me that pic in yo display I can't see it.
donovan: Ldonbeatz@tmail.com
donovan: Thanks
donovan: Wth does austic mean
ayoillaa: :|
ayoillaa: what do you want?
donovan: How you been
donovan: Send me that pic in yo display
donovan: Kk
ayoillaa: no, go away.
donovan: Why...
ayoillaa: cause bye means dont type, so beat it.
donovan: Man that's so old
ayoillaa: oh well, bye.
donovan: Please stop with this rudeness
ayoillaa: bye means dont type, so dont type. kk
donovan: For how long
ayoillaa: :|
donovan: How long damn
ayoillaa: FOREVER!
donovan: Lets just truce
donovan: Causse this ignoreing me stuff is gettin old
ayoillaa: nah.
donovan: Yea really is
donovan: I have to work this wole week man
donovan: You should join the airforce
ayoillaa: i dont care & no.
donovan: Y not
ayoillaa: are you determined to annoy me to death?
donovan: No your just enjoyable
ayoillaa: k, well bye.
donovan: Chillout
donovan: Wit the bs trying to dissmiss me
donovan: What you doin today
ayoillaa: :|
donovan: Be grown up please
donovan: What are you doin today an send me that pic in yo display
donovan: Thanks
ayoillaa: excuse me?
donovan: I wanna hear that trick daddy song and trina its a old school beat
donovan: Think james brown yesssir
ayoillaa: i dont care.
donovan: Kool
donovan: Man I keep sneezin
donovan: Its cold
ayoillaa: why are you telling me, i d o n o t g i v e a f u c k
donovan: Aye im gettin my emissions done right now
donovan: Send me that pic in yo display
donovan: Bruh
ayoillaa: no. stfu

its like damn kid, didnt you try to dismiss me? now you cant stop hitting me. goin on two weeks since i last said anything to him & he just doesnt get it.

but anyhow, how was your week? mine was ehh. i was sick with the flu until wednesday, still got my shit done thoe. kinda proud of my self for that.

twitter is an addiction - almost hit 500 followers, i think its hilarious i say hi to almost everyone that follows me & they say nothing but later on unfollow me. idk how other people operate, but i dont follow just anyone. if there wasnt some crucial work follows id probably have a solid 20 maybe 30 people i follow. if you dont speak why would i follow you? let me know what you're about. i cant stand idiot ass updates & lol's at unfunny shit. not cool. am i the only one that maxes out of updates on twitter?

view screenshot : here
follow me : here

updated my crushspot account again. i dont much fuck with that site but i like updating, ill probably update it once a month. :]

ohhh, i was just reminded. why do niggas message me on myspace askin my name? when you add me my display says mickeyB. under my display name says mickey billions wouldnt that tip you off a lil?

view screenshot : here


im goin back to NY this weekend, but im stayin til next sunday. =o] i need another vacay. im not gone plan anything with chris solely cause he's full of shit. everytime i try to make plans they cancel last minute. so fuck it. i kinda dont wanna go to detroit but anthony is makin it seem like i should go. [gasp: i know, me dealing w. a person from the D. fucking shocking] should i? maybe ill go with my big sister angie, idk yet. <3

if we dont speak & you randomly hit me up for a favor, do yourself a favor & fuck off. that shit is phony as all hell to me. what would make you think i would wanna do you a favor? specially if yeen got shit to say but "can you do me a fave" uhhhhh no, bite me bitch.

kinda missing being inlove but this nigga is so sweet on me, i think i can go for long time "boo" status. i wouldnt even mind,

anthony: U like me
i l l a G: you askin me or tellin me?
anthony: Tellin
i l l a G: how you figure?
anthony: Cuz I figure
i l l a G: you like me.
anthony: Lol I guess

^_^

yusssssssssssssss.

shit thats worth listening too:
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i think im pretty much done for the moment, possibly the day. ly tu sabes.

why am i so fucking angry? i mean like hatered is spewing from my eyes & it burned when i cried thinking about this fucking asshole of a nigga i gave my heart to. i remember i used to go nuts wondering if he was okay & safe. but now i wish he felt the pain that i felt times infnity.

FUCK YOU BITCH, FUCK YOU

the worst part is i dont even think he knows i hate him. how do go from loving someone to wishing their whole family would fall off the ends of the earth? shit is crazy, i sat here going thru my photo album & as another picture popped up i got more & more disgusted.

i had this convo saved since july 08.
thats when we were cute together.

me: vagina
rodney: mmmmhmmm
me: leme play wit you
rodney: im bout to get off tho :(
me: me too
me: just open up
me: (:
rodney: -opens up-
rodney: lets get busy
me: plays wit you
me: ooh yeah .
me: been keeping that shit moist
rodney: wouldnt have it any other way
rodney: especially for you!
me: :x
me: the best pussy i eva had
rodney: you betta believe it!
rodney: :">
me: im lovin this !
rodney: lol how you think i feel
rodney: :D
me: leme know when im hitting ya spot .
rodney: its not easy to find it
rodney: but when you do
rodney: you'll be notified
me: -keeps playing wit it
rodney: gettin warmer
me: -goes deeper
rodney: -gets wetter-
rodney: almost
me: -faster
rodney: ahhhhh
me: you like that huh
rodney: -slights moans-
rodney: yeeeeeeah
me: thats right .
me: i know what you like
rodney: you know me the best
me: of course
rodney: i gotta go tho
rodney: :(
me: bye boo .
rodney: bye

aww
-blushes

kinda wanna thank him thoe, cause if it wasnt for him being the thoughtless neglectful promise breaking boyfriend he was i wouldnt have found my current bewsauz.

i dont really really like anthony the way i really really really liked rodney, but im more matured & i know what not to do. ie, not sweat a nigga nor trip on him for any given reason.

the convo is excellent i dont have to ask a boatload of questions to keep the convo going & my disbeliefs arent viewed as me being narrow minded.

i remember thanksgiving we spoke about evolution & i said pokemon evolve, it was on tv & i thought it was funny. all fuckin hell broke loose, & yeah the fuck i did compare both of the topics together. it made sense to everyone i laughed about it with later on.

& that song he was always writing but never finished, one down forever to go. fuck a forever cause its over. exactly nine months & i only grew from his absence.

so many memories i cant really include him in, like how i went to CLE in december where was he? in atlanta, i coulda stayed my ass home if he was gone end up in the same state as me.

i had fun when i went on his birthday. chrissy, mellie & i went to see india.aire at the house of blues. & we ate at the iHop on mayfield road every meal. Tiffany was our server 3 out of the 6 times [SHOUTOUTS TO TIFFANY! - she gave us mad discounts]

the disappointments outweigh the happiness, & im slightly relieved from blogging this.

rodney, if you're reading this i dont want you to feel away, just how i currently feel. you'll always be my first love. i just dont like you.


toodles, illaa

notice dependent is capital, it wasnt an error im not knocking you but, if you arent independent why say you are? i know alot of you sloppy broads ass out, chest out, rockin chinese slippers on the MTA talkin that independent shit & cant do anything for your self let alone someone else. niggas dont want a dumby broad, in the long haul the chick that can go out in public & conduct herself will get picked over the i always gotta be loud in the skreet beauty supply bamboo earring classless chick any day. its a given.

since i see you out there struggling ima let yall know what it is exactly. printscreen this & post it on your wall for future reference.

qualifications of a INDEPENDENT FEMALE

• own car
• own place
• own money
• own boss
• all around C L E A N
• go getter
• all ways on point
• bills paid in full on time
• always in the hottests most current outfits
• drama free
• versatile
• never DEPENDing on anyone for anything.

if you have to depend on someone for something you're a dependent, find ways to get it yourself. an independent female never places the blame on anyone else & very rarely makes a mistake. street smart & book smart. no independent female is ever a groupie, sloppy, stank. hygiene is key. she completely understands the difference between business & pleasure, therefore she knows that every task should be completed above standard & on time. never one to cause a scene in public. like a boss, she is respectful & respected by all. never let anyone make nor break you.

dependents lack in most if not all of those departments. YOU ARE NOT AN INDEPENDENT IF YOU LEARNED HOW TO SPELL INDEPENDENT FROM WEBBIES SONG, it doesnt work that way.

* independent females were independent before it became a trend in the music world.

some of yall may know him, some might not.

name: Antwan Jones
age: 19
location: Detroit, Michigan
alias: QuikKash

Antwan Javon Jones is a nineteen year old rapper, songwriter with an undeniable love for music, lyrics, and creativity. He began writing at a young age and definitely possesses industry worthy skills.

check him out
Twan Jones' Personal MySpace
QuikKash Music Page
QK Chronicles
Twitter

Music Samples

Quik Kash - The Beginning

Quik Kash & Jay Adams - Down

i want a nigga thats gone

• call me everyday

• text me when we're not on the phone

• tell me all his secrets

• like me for me

• talk about something other than sex all of the time [that shit annoys me to no end]

• have a sense of style

• make me laugh

• introduce me to all his boys

• introduce me to the fam

• respect my six month rule

• let me drive his car

• pay the bill when we go out

• buy me flowers just because

• make me feel like a queen whenever im around

• be my equal not my superior

• lay the pipe when the time comes

• rub my back

• take care of me when im sick

• finish my sentences

• beat me like chris brown


the list is longer but for right now thats exactly what i want.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yt4wqDmwZ2A


okay bey, you doin ya thang i see you.
but whats with the redundant concept?
im gettin sick of you nigga. i still love this song thoe

it's too wide It's too strong, it won't fit It's too much, it's too tough
i talk like this 'cause i can back it up
i got a big ego, such a huge ego but he love my big ego, it's too much i walk like this 'cause i can back it up.

anthony: U cook?
me: yep ima chef
anthony: Good!
me: you cook?
anthony: Hell no
me: okay, well i got you
anthony: Good! :-)
me: if i cook, you clean
anthony: Okaaaaay sure
me: i think i might just keep you around
anthony: Haha u silly.


-cheeseeee :]


xoxo, mickey

aerin | whippin a nissan | fedex / kids footlocker employee | cakin' | journalist x talent promoter | stacked & thick
basically, i do me the best way i know how. MY BLOG, MY THOUGHTS, MY FEELINGS, if YOU have a problem w. anything you've seen or read here thats not MY concern. click the x or backtrack. i'll be moving to my own personal HTTP:// soon. -mick boogie *
sidenote : mickey, koko, illa = me.

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