so i got another three day weekend, which should be fun but i have the flu. not the damn swine flu, yall ignorant ass niggas fail to see that thats not the only type of flu. but anyways my fevers 99 pushin' 100, nose dripping, throat dry, dehydrated, sneezing, coughing the whole nine. i blame my moms "boyfriend" he seems like the type to just up & infect someone & then keep it moving. havin the flu had its advantages like having people wait on me hand & foot. i can get used to this. ^_^


xoxo, koko.

it dawned on me that i never drop below my standards when my homegirl gave me the run down of the type of dudes im always with.

tall - 6’0 + no exceptions 5’11 = too short for me even though im only 5’5”.5

yellow ; if you’re cute possibly a chocodrop never a darkskinned dude.

skinny - i dont like em thick & i damn sure dont like em meaty unless its concealed in his draws. ;)

vcuts - i need to see that, no matter how small a nigga is those are achievable

attending college - community college is negotiable, uni&sc’s prefered

working - at least one job banking no less than $9 an hr.

driving - long as it has 4 wheels all is well, but its a plus if his car is a better make & newer than mine.

own place - i dont stress this one but it would be nice

clean - showers daily, i dont want to smell you EVER that includes breath. clean clothes a must. car clean, place clean.

attire - current & up to date - no skinny jeans; its not cute, atleast three suits in the closet.

language - profanity is the sign of an ignorant mind trying to express itself. id like it if we could carry on a convo w|out the cuss words or multiple hood refernces like yo, dawg etc.

knowledgeable - know whats going on in the world around you, ignorance is bliss.

demeanor - dont be a pussy ass, but dont be too violent. calm peaceable, respectful w| a wild side.

body art - not a requirement but i dont want to see that fresh out county hot pen ink lisa frank's retarded sister lookin garbage.

talented - please something other than bball or football

NO KIDS - im sorry, no. kids = i dont come first & that doesnt work for me.

thats not really asking alot, nine times out of ten thats exactly what i get.

i just found out i can now blog via my sidekick. so muthaFUCKatumblr.

bout damn time google hopped on this shit, i shall definitely be flooding this with lots and lots of stuff. you ready?


mkay, gooood.

xoxo, ILLA

sometimes i forget i have one of these
its too much to maintain two blogs.


soo here is where you can reach me.

kishez juice
@mcbillions

Y! - illaa.ghee | AIM - ayoillaa


i missed yall, & japan was great to view pics from my trip
scroll down & click the flickr link.


HOLLLLLLA

donovan: Kool
ayoillaa: :|
donovan: Bow bow
ayoillaa: chu want nigga?
donovan: Money
ayoillaa: cant help ya.
ayoillaa: why you so lame?
donovan: Cause
donovan: You love me
ayoillaa: nah.
ayoillaa: i dont.
ayoillaa: lmao, i was talkin to the wrong donovan. "/
donovan: Love you some donovan
ayoillaa: no the fuck i dont.
donovan: When
ayoillaa: that donovan is my ex from highschool.
ayoillaa: just now.
donovan: Bow bow
donovan: My boo
ayoillaa: who is yo boo?
donovan: Its a song
donovan: By usher and alicia keys
ayoillaa: oh.
ayoillaa: lame.
donovan: Bow bow
ayoillaa: you a lame
ayoillaa: idk why i ever liked you.
ayoillaa: i musta went retarded for a hot one.
donovan: Why so much hatred
ayoillaa: cause, you make me sick.
donovan: You love me
ayoillaa: nigga pls.
donovan: That's what it is
ayoillaa: i love you like i love aids.
donovan: Looool
donovan: Gimmie kiss
ayoillaa: suck me off first.
donovan: Oh wow
donovan: I always make you laugh and smile
ayoillaa: no, you used to.
ayoillaa: now i dont really want you to talk to me.
donovan: Aww
donovan: You still my boo
donovan: Bay
ayoillaa: dont try & butter me up.
ayoillaa: you cant even spell yo own mypsace url.
donovan: Www.myspace.com/Ldonbeatz
ayoillaa: [AVAILABLE] "Out With The Old, In With The New" www.myspace.com/ldonbeayz
donovan: Overtime wit the game man
donovan: Thanks
ayoillaa: i dont remember askin.
ayoillaa: whatever.
donovan: Oh really
donovan: This dude from pretty ricky gay
ayoillaa: yeah, really.
ayoillaa: like you?
donovan: Spectact
ayoillaa: you got his posters onya wall.
donovan: Don't play wit me
donovan: Bruh
donovan: Its on wshh
donovan: Stfu
ayoillaa: you a lie.
donovan: Yeah
donovan: Its on there
ayoillaa: he tellin yall?
donovan: Dummi
donovan: Www.worldstarhiphop.com
ayoillaa: im not fin turn to it.
donovan: Loooooool@these comments
ayoillaa: GTFOH.
ayoillaa: gime the proper link fuck face.
donovan: Www.worldstarhiphop.com
donovan: Dumbass
ayoillaa: ima slap you bitch.
donovan: I just typed that
donovan: Oh ok
ayoillaa: you are such a groupie.
ayoillaa: this is the proper link.
ayoillaa: http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshh19kWqIB5bLIeadoo
ayoillaa: any smart person would know that
donovan: Fuck a proper link
donovan: Asswipe shit head
donovan: Just know the nigga gay
ayoillaa: he ya baby?
donovan: Nigga
ayoillaa: is he?
donovan: No dumbass
donovan: Don't try me
ayoillaa: i just tried you.
ayoillaa: what you fin do?
donovan: Punch ya in ya fukin lip
donovan: Ill rip yo lip ring out and stab you in the fkin eye wit the shit
ayoillaa: lmaooo.
ayoillaa: shut up fuck boy.
ayoillaa: get ya back broke by a big burly nigga if you try me like that again.
donovan: Naw bruh not me
ayoillaa: you same one.
donovan: Fuk up
ayoillaa: make me cunt.
donovan: Shut the fuck up
donovan: Damn
ayoillaa: MAKE ME BITCH!
ayoillaa: make me!
donovan: Shit
ayoillaa: fuck
ayoillaa: ass
ayoillaa: damn
donovan: Who you callin bitch
donovan: Ill pop ya fuckin eye
donovan: Punk beach
donovan: Pussy ass
ayoillaa: im callin you a bitch, bitch
ayoillaa: dirty cocksucker
donovan: I got peoples in acworth ready to ride for a nigga
donovan: Ready
ayoillaa: get them niggas done off by the kkk
donovan: Shut up
ayoillaa: roll in my hood w| that rowdy shit.
ayoillaa: bet the white folk call the cops or come outside de's cocked ready to shoot.
donovan: Hush
ayoillaa: no, you hush.
donovan: Iight
donovan: Now you shut the fuck up
ayoillaa: EAT ME TRICK
ayoillaa: talkin out the side of ya neck like you hold weight round here
ayoillaa: either make me shut the fuck up or you SHUT THE FUCK UP
donovan: You typing like u hard
donovan: Ion wanna smack a beach up
ayoillaa: & i go so opposite of soft.
donovan: Do I have to
ayoillaa: you must be in the wrong box?
ayoillaa: ima smack ya mamas wig off.
donovan: You must got sand in ya coochie
ayoillaa: she over there lonely as fuck & you talkin me to death
donovan: Get that sand out ya coochie please
donovan: Dusty sandy ass pussy
ayoillaa: aint no sand in my pussy.
ayoillaa: but you want it thoe.
ayoillaa: i found ya mama on twitter
ayoillaa: http://twitter.com/sweetpotatobobo
donovan: Ion want that dick you got
donovan: Im str8
ayoillaa: donovan: Aww
ayoillaa: donovan: You still my boo
ayoillaa: donovan: Bay
ayoillaa: accordin to that you straight homo
ayoillaa: leme get up in that ass.
ayoillaa: aye fag
ayoillaa: homo
ayoillaa: you can be my bottom bitch.
ayoillaa: since my dick is probably bigger than yours.
donovan: Wrong box foolm
donovan: Go put ya dick a blender beach
ayoillaa: im talkin to donovan winters
ayoillaa: 7241990
ayoillaa: gpc student
ayoillaa: homosexual beat maker.
ayoillaa: you wanna suck my dick?
ayoillaa: aye, nigga
donovan: loool wth
donovan: This beach got my whole life
ayoillaa: you told me bitch.
donovan: Stalker!
ayoillaa: fail.
donovan: Naw bruh
ayoillaa: yeen worth my time.
donovan: Yeen worth mines
ayoillaa: thats how i found out yeen nobodies 19.
ayoillaa: yet you on my back.
donovan: Im just bored beach
donovan: Fill the space to my boredom
donovan: Go cry or some
ayoillaa: lmao @ go cry.
ayoillaa: this comin from a nigga that trips every time i go out.
ayoillaa: ask yo self how many times i really check for you.
donovan: What....
ayoillaa: dont act brand new now bitch.
ayoillaa: who is ro
donovan: Make some fuckin sensce if you gone type bullsit please
ayoillaa: what you doin w| ro
ayoillaa: who is renzo?
ayoillaa: who is chris?
ayoillaa: who is mike?
ayoillaa: i used to be yo boo.
donovan: Beach and I kept talkin to ya bum ass!
ayoillaa: cho ole whinin ass.
ayoillaa: fuck off me bitch.
donovan: You gone trip over 1 chick
ayoillaa: cause you got this bitch speakin on me like its cool.
ayoillaa: none of my niggas got shit to say about you ever.
donovan: Well she was just saying
donovan: And asking who you was
ayoillaa: well bitch im just sayin.
donovan: Talm bout bringing gumbo
ayoillaa: why does it fuckin matter who i am?
donovan: Cause niggas don't need to know bout me
ayoillaa: dumb bitch.
donovan: Cause she my sideline boo
ayoillaa: you are so fuckin dumb.
donovan: She wanna know
ayoillaa: okay.
donovan: What's going on and who going on
ayoillaa: well go occupy yoself w| her.
ayoillaa: cause i give no fucks.
donovan: She sleep
ayoillaa: i didnt fuckin ask.
donovan: I don't care bout her
donovan: Well I dont
ayoillaa: get away from me.
donovan: But I can dismiss her
donovan: Or any other chick
donovan: So don't get big headed
donovan: Just cause you in a high postion with me
ayoillaa: then why havent you left me alone?
ayoillaa: smh.
donovan: Nigga
ayoillaa: you cant.
donovan: Its nothing I can
donovan: I just choose to fuck wit you
ayoillaa: you are a liar.
donovan: Looool@ I cant
ayoillaa: cause you cant let me be.
donovan: I did it months ago
donovan: I didn't even barly remember you
donovan: You had to give me hints and shit who you was
ayoillaa: okay?
donovan: Lucly I got a good memory
ayoillaa: & now you on me.
donovan: Fuck you talm bout
donovan: Bruh
ayoillaa: you're on my sack & balls.
ayoillaa: my jock.
ayoillaa: my ass.
ayoillaa: you lonely as hell without me
donovan: Stfu
donovan: Sack and balls the same
donovan: Dummy
donovan: Naw
ayoillaa: actually it aint.
donovan: Never lonly
ayoillaa: balls are inside the sack.
donovan: I have a starting 5
donovan: you benchwarming right now
ayoillaa: lmao.
ayoillaa: bench warmin is for bitches that wanna be onya squad
ayoillaa: i already cut yo ass loose.
donovan: Right now you shootin free throws
donovan: Practing
ayoillaa: the only thing you can give me is a fuckin headache.
donovan: Keep brickin you gone be off the team
ayoillaa: practicing?
ayoillaa: cause you cant spell.
donovan: Only thing you can give me is fucking shit
donovan: Spell these nuts
ayoillaa: these nuts
donovan: In ya moth
ayoillaa: in ya mouth
donovan: Fuck you.... is that spelled right beach
ayoillaa: non spellin cunt.
ayoillaa: yes it is fuck face.
ayoillaa: gah you so stupid.
donovan: Eat a fucking dick.... I hope that's correct
ayoillaa: i will.
ayoillaa: took you a minute to spell that.
ayoillaa: illiterate douche.
donovan: Smack your fucking face with ammino acids...beach
ayoillaa: amino - one m.
donovan: Type beach
donovan: Come correct
ayoillaa: asdfghjkl!
ayoillaa: an amino acid is a molecule containing both amine and carboxyl functional groups.
ayoillaa: building blocks for protiens
ayoillaa: leme school you bitch.
ayoillaa: get ya notepad.
ayoillaa: you ready.
ayoillaa: huh?
ayoillaa: you ready fag?
donovan: Fuck you bye
ayoillaa: lol.
ayoillaa: yeen goin nowhere.
ayoillaa: you mad?
donovan: You keep bullshiting
ayoillaa: excuse me?
donovan: Like last night
donovan: Tried to call you an talk and shit
ayoillaa: i was playin a game.
donovan: You playin fuckin games
donovan: Pissin me off man
ayoillaa: you texted me everytime you had something to say.
ayoillaa: why the fuck didnt you speak.
donovan: Im fin give up
donovan: I was trying
ayoillaa: no you werent.
donovan: But you obvisly to fuckin busy
ayoillaa: i cant help it if people text me.
donovan: If someone call you err blue moon
donovan: To talk to yu
donovan: You should at least talk to dem
donovan: You failed the test
ayoillaa: i said hello all you did was yawn.
ayoillaa: fuck a test
ayoillaa: this isnt school.
ayoillaa: eitha you gone come 100 or you gone need to fall back.
ayoillaa: cause i do not have time for games, tests, challenges
donovan: Da fuck I always keep it 100
ayoillaa: nah.
donovan: Ion like bout shit
donovan: Bout all my shit
ayoillaa: i cant tell.
donovan: Oh well
donovan: Bye
ayoillaa: lmao.
ayoillaa: im too real for you.
ayoillaa: its obvious.
ayoillaa: you want a bitch thats gone giggle up inya face.
donovan: Did you not see my last message
ayoillaa: no.
ayoillaa: oh well?
donovan: I think it said bye means don't type
illaa G: oh wrd?
illaa G: okay. bye.
donovan: I knew you got around easy
donovan: Lol@ you think im jealous
donovan: Lol
donovan: Dumb
donovan: Get real
donovan: Brawd
donovan: Yeah
donovan: Your dumb
donovan: When I move you move
donovan: Jus like that
donovan: Hahah
donovan: Im laughin
donovan: Hahah
donovan: Bum
donovan: Bum your dum dum
donovan: Yep
donovan: I can
donovan: If I fuckinn want to beach
donovan: Ayeee
donovan: Im fin call you
donovan: Bruh
donovan: Kk
donovan: Ayeeeeeee
donovan: Ayee
donovan: Hmm
donovan: Lets gone settle this
donovan: Meet me at checkers on riverdale road or southlake mall
donovan: And we can go 1 on 1
donovan: Im not even gone bring no goons
donovan: Str8 1 on 1
donovan: signed off at 10:22 am.
donovan: signed on at 10:27 am.
donovan: signed off at 10:31 am.
donovan: signed on at 10:35 am.
[AVAILABLE] "What a dumb Beach"
donovan: So you mad
donovan: Lol

& today may seventeenth i give it all up, ive completely accepted the fact that we are over, the more i try to convince myself this could quite possibly work, i just sicken my self a lil more. i cant better yet i dont want to want it more than he does. implied doesnt cut it, its kinda hard, never fell in love with anyone before. but he needs to do him & i me.

"so i think im just about over being your girlfriend im leaving, im leaving no more wonderin what you've been doin where you been sleeping im leaving im leaving"

so sick, of wondering & waiting. fuck it all.

if its meant to be itll be

amirite? <3

aerin | whippin a nissan | fedex / kids footlocker employee | cakin' | journalist x talent promoter | stacked & thick
basically, i do me the best way i know how. MY BLOG, MY THOUGHTS, MY FEELINGS, if YOU have a problem w. anything you've seen or read here thats not MY concern. click the x or backtrack. i'll be moving to my own personal HTTP:// soon. -mick boogie *
sidenote : mickey, koko, illa = me.

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